We a bunch a biggons! My mom's side of the family. We are big people. My mom's parents, her brothers, and now my cousins were/are big. We are all either overweight or even some of us obese. Why didn't we get the FIT gene? I passed that big gene on to my daughters too. All three of us are beautifully plump. I have to wonder if all of us being overweight is not somehow connected to the gene pool? I do realize that choices in food and fitness play a huge part. But it can't be all about what goes in our bodies. It isn't that fair that I have to work twice as hard to keep weight off of me than my thin counterparts. Life isn't fair though...so suck it up (or in) buttercup!
The fact that all three of us (my daughters and myself) are overweight bothers me. It's like I cursed them or something. My oldest daughter doesn't seem to care what others think about her. I have ALWAYS admired that about her. She is strong and very self assured. My younger daughter struggles with self-image. She is only 11!! She is beautiful but chunky. She is slimming up some now that she is getting older. BUT her weight and her self-image has caused her to make some poor choices. She gravitates toward some kids in school that aren't great influences on her. Those that I don't necessarily like her to be around. When I ask her why she hangs out with said people her response is "I know so in so likes me. But they hang out with the popular girls. I just don't fit in". She isn't athletic. She isn't the cheerleader type. She isn't an academic wiz. So she chooses her tribe based on the fact she feels less than. I remember when I was her age I felt the same. I was always self-conscience. I know the popular girls liked me as a whole, one on one. But not so much in their group. Cause I was different.
It's the same story! Remix!!! The difference in one child to the other--not weight or size or age. It's the internal dialog. One girl marches to her own beat. She is self assured and even though she doesn't fit societies model of "thin and beautiful" it doesn't effect the quality of life. The other child is too much like me! She worries about everything! Like for instance- I want to zip line! I have always wanted to ride in a hot air balloon! Recently there was a festival close enough that I could have done so. The very first thought was I was too heavy to ride in the balloon. They would ask my weight and I would be denied. Same with zip lines. I believe the weight limit for that is 250. I will not be pushing nature that way. I have always let my size or SOMETHING keep me from really enjoying life and people around me. I have made very poor choices because I didn't feel worthy enough to make a better one. I empathize with my baby. Cause that is exactly what she is doing too! She is making choices based on her inner dialog and her poor self image.
How can I help her? We can work on the outside together. We can lose weight and feel great. Will that help? Yes but no. There is something internally that has to change. My prayer at this point is......SHOW HER HOW AWESOME SHE IS and MAKE HER BELIEVE IT LORD!!! Let ME believe it Lord. Healthier choices in friends, in food, in fun activities....just a healthier outlook on life altogether. Just so you know.....................ONE DAY I am going to zip line and I am not going to be concerned about the weight limit. I won't need to be.
Day 7!
Both of these pictures are of me about 30 to 40lbs slimmer.
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