I haven't written much simply because I was sure you didn't want to hear how I was eating donuts, cake, brownies, cookies, pizza, bread, Little Debbie, etc. I figured it was best to just not write I AM A FAILURE each week or day for that matter. Do you ever feel that way yourself? Like a failure? Like the one area of your life you lose control in haunts the rest of your life that is going pretty well. It's like a magnifying glass propped up to amplify my failures. I can't be the only one, or can I?
Any who..............This weekend was slap in the face for me. It started on Thursday. I ate like a junk food junkie. All I had was carbs loaded with sugar and topped with grease. I felt horrible. Disgusting and just gross. My skin, my stomach, and my mind were sick. But did I care? Sure, I cared enough to mentally drain my emotional bank of care. I was spent. Come Friday I woke up and did my devotion. My bible opened up to a scripture that I knew God was saying was for me to wake up and make a change. I heard him! I did. But I heard just enough to push it in one ear and out the other. Friday, Saturday, and even Sunday was pretty miserable. I ate tempera sushi with shrimp sauce on Saturday. I even talked with a friend about a supplement (not sure what to call it) that was for fat loss. I heard her too. I believed her. Sunday I went to a huge meal followed by cake. Even after Sunday's church service that dealt strictly with ME. Like God had my digits, ya know? I heard him..............but I didn't want to listen! Even though I did pray "God help me to want to do better"
That's where Monday comes in. The most universal diet day ever. I decided it was time to try again. This time doing the tried and true..........no sugar-low carb way. It works for me. I am an addict. So its best for me to not partake with the food that causes me trouble! Monday I did my thing. No carbs. No sugar! I was trying. YAY ME! Somebody give me a cookie!!! Rewind..........somebody give me bite of cheese...:)
Tuesday rolls around and I am still choosing to eat low carb. However, my friends words keep ringing in my ear about how when she takes this supplement it literally allows her focus, energy, and stamina. I decided to do more research on my own. I did. I couldn't find a single review that said that "this stuff" didn't work. I sent her a message asking a few questions at 4:45. She invited me to an already scheduled even for 6pm that night. I decided it wouldn't hurt to at least go hear, taste and see what was going on.
That meeting was pretty awesome. Four people, a husband and wife team about my age and two other ladies (plus their stories of other people who are on it) gave their testimonies. It was really good. The product tasted great (some of them) and it seem legit. I would try this. It couldn't hurt. It could only help. Today is DAY 1 on "this stuff". I am going to see if all these people who claim this stuff is "magic" to their health and well being is really true. I am still doing low carb but lets see where I am 30 days from now. I won't reveal what IT is yet. Cause I really want to see if it helps me before I tell you what it is. What do I expect from this magic potion? Energy! Appetite Suppressant! Inflammation GONE!!! (which means no pain in areas that I have it now)
I promise myself to write once a week if not more about how this is going. I am required (by my friend) to measure in inches and not the scale. I have to chart my inches in arms, legs, waist, hips, bust, etc. This is supposed to give me an accurate gauge of how well this stuff works.
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