It's midday and lunch time. I had my first shake; vanilla! I have to say it was quite tasty. I didn't want anything for breakfast. Probably because I binged last night. Told you I would be honest! I did. Like a crack addict needing a hit or an alcoholic in a bar or a Cross-fit junkie at the gym.......
I just can't help myself around my vice. Sugar is my kryptonite. I knew I was starting this diet today. So I binged last night. Its a thing...this food addiction. Its real and its powerful and it is painful. I have a problem and I admit it. Isn't that the first step to recovery? So instead of eating for boredom I am writing. I don't think I will be able to write every time I feel like eating. But today I thought it would be best.
Here is a secret. One that is quite visible to the eye but easily ignored by people who see me daily. I have gained 50+ lbs in exactly a year! I married on October 21, 2017 and I know how much I weighed that day-because I use to step on the scale EVERYDAY! I stopped weighing.............cause I wanted to eat. Truth hurts!
I measured my waist in inches this morning. I stepped on the scale this morning too. If I could cuss at this very moment I would! Saying, "Oh, I am just so bloated today" stopped being a legit excuse three sizes ago. I took a picture of the scale and the measuring tape. One day I will be brave enough to share it.
Lunch time is over........................I didn't eat the candy in my drawer. I will take that as a win!
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