Shake It! Don't Break It!

I gave up. Like, completely gave up this weekend. I didn't want to diet. I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to drink a shake. I ate the rice and smothered it with shrimp sauce. I ate cake and cupcake icing and a few other things too. And...................I didn't want to feel guilty about it. So I told myself I was done with this challenge. I was done with dieting. I would just be fat. I even told my husband that at least I was somewhat pretty. I wouldn't be ugly and fat; just fat. Cause for me it's a mind game. Food verses brain and will power. Who is going to win? This weekend the food won! So I tried to make my mind feel better by saying I didn't care.

I woke up this morning saying the same thing- I quit! I am done! I won't do this anymore! I am just going to be happy fat. As I sat down to do my devotion I felt led to read out of a different devotional book than normal. The timing was important! Read the devotion.

So after reading that it is obvious that the Lord is gracious enough to say "don't give up self discipline" I don't for one minute think that me not sticking to the weight loss challenge for two days is a sin. Nor do I believe that eating anything is sin--including pizza! Pizza came straight from heaven!! But I do believe that my mindset about myself and about my abilities IS a sin! Why? Cause the Lord said we are fearfully and wonderfully made. Who am I to call what the Creator made to be less than what he calls it to be? We are given these bodies. It really is up to us to maintain them. I don't think he means drink a shake. But I do know he means................I am worth fighting for!!! So I am not going to quit. I am going to keep trying. One healthy meal or shake to replace a meal is much better than the alternative! So I am going to SHAKE IT! Not BREAK the "diet". I am going to keep on keeping on............until!

AND most importantly I am going to take a diet from negative self talk. My challenge this week is to find someway to spin the negative thought into a positive......CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!!!